I learned something new today about self-perception and how others perceive us. Thinking too highly of oneself elevates us above others in importance, making others’ needs, gifts, ideas, and positions seem less vital. This kind of thinking has often caused issues within the church.
Equally dangerous, however, is seeing oneself too lowly. From personal experience, I’ve allowed myself to believe I am unattractive and unworthy of compliments. There is a sort of “feigned lowliness” that is more common than genuine self-loathing among believers.
Lately, I’ve been filling conversations with phrases like, “I’m so fat,” “I’m so stupid,” and “I couldn’t possibly contribute,” subconsciously fishing for compliments. This is a form of pride that seeks validation through forced praise. It becomes clear that this is feigned lowliness by the small, small anger that arises when someone refuses to engage or agrees with these negative assessments.
However, some individuals genuinely view themselves in a sinfully low light. Inactivity in spiritual matters fueled by feelings of worthlessness is also sinful. After all, hasn’t the Lord empowered each believer with spiritual gifts meant to build up the local body and glorify His Name? We must not despise the gift or the Giver through wrong thinking.
These insights came to me during two very different interactions I had while out with my mum. One made me question myself, and the other made me realize how amazing I am. But then I wondered, is this from God or from self? I later had another conversation with my mum about trauma and triggers, which I will share when led—please, we do as led over here. LOL.
To the person reading this, I pray you see your worth as God sees it.
I pray you avoid bringing yourself down by focusing on yourself and the world.
May God our Father give us eyes to see and appreciate His creation as He does. May the spirit of self-first be removed from us today.
Amen.
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