Entry 1: Finding me again

I had been having a great year; quit a few jobs and finally landed that dream role I was made for.
The relationship between my family and myself couldn't have been better.
My love life..... hmmmmm my love life on the other hand wasn't going great at all. If my love life was a test, let's just say a woman was failing at it!

I felt like a failure even though everything else in my life was going great.
I wanted to give up on myself, give up on the concept of love and just live life like my mate Gianna did; care-free, sex, drugs, you know, the works.

Then one day, it hit me I hadn't tried God!

I say tried God as if He is this 'thing' we can just pick up as and when we like huh?
But, that's exactly what we do though, no? We mostly seek Him out only when we need help, when really and truly that isn't the best way to live our best Godly lives.

So yes, I did the most obvious thing and sought after our Father in Heaven.
I was scared, my failed self didn't even think I deserved an audience with him.

But the moment I lay it all out there, crying out to him, bearing out my hurt, anger and frustration, I was reassured with this text- "Come to me all you who are weary and burdened , and I will give you rest." Matthew 11:28

See, God never asked me to come to him with my perfect self; shoot, now that I think about it, how would he help a 'near perfect' me?
I went to him to find rest. I went to him to find guidance because this life yea, if you don't have God, what's the point?

The journey I know isn't going to be an easy one but that's where having a good Christian support system (in the form of THE BIBLE, friends, family, online communities and a personal favorite, online and offline diaries) comes in. I pray this finds and touches someone today and encourages you to begin and or continue your journey with God today.

Prayer for today: Father in Heaven, today I pray you touch anyone who needs you today. Let them find their way to you so you can heal them in aspects of their life that need your healing touch. In Jesus' name have I prayed. Amen.

Love,
Faith.