Entry 49- Still waiting… & that’s okay.

I’m currently in the wait.

Waiting for promises to be fulfilled.

Waiting for prayers to be answered.

Waiting for things to finally make sense and honestly, it isn’t glamorous.

Nobody posts about the wait unless it’s accompanied by a dramatic “glow-up” reveal. You know the ones- “I waited, I prayed, I trusted God, and now look what He did!”

We rarely see the raw middle part- where you’re staring at your life like:

“God, this doesn’t look anything like the prophecy.”

I’ve had those moments where it almost worked out.

I’ve had conversations that felt like divine alignment, only for them to end with a text that read: “it’s not you, it’s me”

I’ve interviewed for opportunities I knew I was qualified for, doors that cracked open just enough to let hope in, only to slam shut without explanation.

I’ve gotten excited, prayed hard, and planned ahead… only for God to say, “Not this one.” And if I’m honest, that almost is sometimes harder than a flat-out no.

You finally start opening up to someone, only for them to ghost you when it got real.

You’re shortlisted for the job, but they go with “someone more experienced.”

You’re preparing for the new apartment, but the rent shoots up out of nowhere.

You think the idea is from God, but the timing- or the team- isn’t.

You forgave your ex and thought reconciliation was coming, but God was using closure, not a comeback.

Can we be real? The longer you wait, the more tempting it is to settle.

To lower the bar.

To accept “at least it’s something” instead of “this is from God.”

But the wait isn’t wasted time.

It’s testing. It’s stretching. It’s preparation.

The enemy loves to whisper, “If it hasn’t happened yet, maybe it never will.” But faith says, “If it hasn’t happened yet, God’s not done.”

Abraham and Sarah almost gave up, but Isaac came right on time.

David was anointed king but had to dodge spears before he ever saw a crown.

Jesus was overlooked in His hometown; but that didn’t cancel His calling.

Almosts don’t cancel destiny. Delays don’t delete promises.
Waiting doesn’t mean you’re forgotten. It means God is still working behind the scenes.

Peace isn’t just the fruit of answered prayers. Sometimes it’s what you get when you surrender your expectations.

Healing happens in the waiting room- not just from heartbreak, but from the idolatry that forms when you want the thing more than you want Him.

I used to cry over people I thought were my future. I used to beg God to bring back things I now thank Him for not giving me.

That apartment would’ve buried me in debt.

That man would’ve drained my spirit.

That job would’ve kept me far from purpose.

Your “almost” was also God’s “I love you too much to let you settle.”

You are not behind.

You are not forgotten.

You are in the waiting room of a God who never delays without reason.

And one day soon, you’ll look back and say:

“I almost settled, but thank God I waited.”

Dear God,

You see the things I almost had.

You know the dreams I’ve buried, the texts I never got, the prayers that haven’t been answered.

Thank You for holding me in the in-between.

Help me trust Your “no” and “not yet” as much as I trust Your “yes.”

I want what You want for me, even when it takes longer than I expected.

Teach me to wait well—with hope, with joy, with expectancy.

And when it finally comes, remind me that You were with me all along.

In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Entry 48- “Did You Say That, God?”

“My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me.”

John 10:27 (NIV)

Let’s be honest: sometimes we think we’ve heard from God, only to realise later we heard our own excitement, anxiety, or assumptions echoing back at us.

Like that time I was sure God said to take that opportunity- only to find out He hadn’t said take it, He had said take your time. *such a face to palm moment*

Or that time I thought a person in my life was “sent from God,” but really, they were just sent from social media. (Hey, the algorithm is loud too!)

We often want God's voice to be like thunder- clear, loud, and unmistakable. But most of the time, it's more like the gentle nudge you feel not to send that message, or the subtle tug when you're about to walk into a place you don't belong.

Think of Elijah in 1 Kings 19. He didn’t hear God in the wind, fire, or earthquake. God came in a still, small voice. If you’re always looking for lightning bolts, you might miss the whisper in your spirit.

One morning, I was driving to work on autopilot. I heard a soft prompting in my spirit: “Take the longer route.” No thunder, no angel appearing on my dashboard, just a nudge. I almost ignored it—because who has time for traffic?

But I listened.

Later, I found out there had been an accident on the regular route I usually took—right around the time I would’ve been there. Sometimes, God's guidance looks like inconvenience. And that’s when discernment matters most.

Let’s clear this up: God still speaks. The problem is that we often can’t hear Him clearly because we’re too crowded—by noise, distractions, pressure, and fear.

It’s hard to hear God’s whisper when we’re drowning in other voices:

• The voice of comparison.

• The voice of self-doubt.

• The voice of the group chat.

• The voice of your own overthinking.

Clarity comes when we pause, pray, and position ourselves to listen. It’s not about perfection—it’s about proximity.

Signs You’re Hearing God’s Voice

1. It aligns with Scripture – God will not contradict His Word.

2. It brings peace, not pressure – Even when the message is challenging, there's a holy peace that accompanies it.

3. It’s consistent – You may hear the same word, scripture, or prompting through different sources (your devotion, a sermon, even a random stranger).

4. It leads to growth – God’s voice challenges us, but never condemns. Conviction, not confusion.

Be honest: When was the last time you sat in silence with God, not talking, just listening?

Sometimes, we want answers in our 5-minute prayers, but God wants relationship, not transactions. He’s not a vending machine. He's a loving Father.

And if you’re in a season where He’s quiet, maybe He’s training your ears- not punishing your faith.

I need YOU to remember that sometimes, clarity isn’t about a voice- it’s about a verse. Open your Bible. The guidance is in there. God still speaks... we just have to slow down and really listen.

Dear Lord, 

Tune my ears to Your frequency. Let Your whisper be louder than the world’s noise. I don’t just want to follow my feelings—I want to follow Your leading.

Where I’ve been confused, bring clarity. Where I’ve been hasty, teach me patience. Help me to discern Your voice above all others.
And when I’m unsure, remind me that even in silence, You are still speaking through Your Word, Your Spirit, and Your peace.
In Jesus’ name, Amen.